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Monday, January 12, 2009

Music Monday - Happy Ending

This is the first time, I join Music Monday after had been invited by Rozella and Bluecrystaldude weeks ago (or months ago?). Rozella did ask me why it took me so long to join. I have few reasons but let me put them in my closet ;)

Ok, what I wanna talk in Music Monday as a novice? :)

Let's talk about Honesty is the best policy?

It has been more than a year since I started blogging and I could see good and bad things around. Well, at least for me. You know, you can't assume what is good for you good for others and otherwise.

I got to know someone who used to read my blog, be my fan and ended up my long distance lover. At least, so I expected.

We talked on the phone, exchanging pictures via MMS and Yahoo Messenger. Talked about blog, news, us and not to forget about soccer as well. I had believed every single word from her and even believe the whole her. She even got MySpace which also caught my attention. I spoke to myself "Ya Allah, what a beautiful creature You have created! A model!".

She called me everyday and everynight. Hours. I mean Hours.

I got jealous when I read comment on her blog. Lovely ones from other bloggers. I was overwhelmed. Sometiemes I thought did she just play around with me which happen so to others as well? I erased the thought.

Then all in sudden she disappeared from blogsphere and no call or even text message. I wondered if she was ok. I did left her few text messages.

I was surprised with a bad news. She met with an accident which the car turned turtle. I was shock and speechless. After few days, she texted me. Told me that she was fine but pain was everywhere.

Then she started to disappeared again. By this time I had a feeling that she was not interested in me anymore. Days before that, she kept calling me and wanted to know whether I do love her. Sometimes even at 3am in the morning. Honestly, I was kinda annoyed. But for the respect of love, I did entertain her.

After weeks, then she called me again. Then, I found out that she was attached with someone else who happen to be a blogger too. I was devastated.

Months went by, I could smell some weird things between her and another fellow blogger. Things like -- both got few houses in Damansara and parent went for Haj. I started my own investigation until the true color appeared. Even all the pictures are fake.

Now, I know the true color, the real thing. The good thing is she conffessed about the lie. I have forgiven her and I take this as my lesson in life.

Lets listen to a song to kill the Monday Blues...



This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.


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70 comments:

  1. I have a pretty good idea who it is.. Don't worry.. I wouldn't judge. But Faisal, we'll never learn without ever knowing hurt and pain, right? It sucks, but that's the way it's gotta be. Dare to fail, remember? :)

    Anyways, I'm happy to see you on MM! Did you check out Rozie's choice for her new blog? According to her post, music decreases the pain of depression..

    So let's enjoy our Monday, kick away the Monday Blues pi main jauh2. :)

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  2. Oh and btw, I really enjoyed your choice! I even replayed it again! :) Keeps me company during my long hours in the wee morning... ;)

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  3. to love and to be loved is two different thing..perhaps you deserve someone better than her :)

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  4. Woohoo!!! You are finally here and yep, I think it was months ago now. Hehehehe

    Glad you decided to join us. Love your first choice and hope that you return next week too!

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  5. chills bebeh. break up doesnt mean it the end of the world. its just like a new born life. you'll get what you deserve and her too. =) you'll get a much better person then her *wink*

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  6. love hurts but time will ease the pain. (n music too) ;D

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  7. faisal, wow, i thought this is real drama. did she pretend all the happenings? u mean even the accident? or everything is true except the cheating part?

    whatever it is, its my first time hearing such stuff on the blogosphere. gotta be careful :)

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  8. hmmm sabar je la kawan... at first,i thought this is ur another 'novel' LOL

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  9. kesiannya,i pun dapat rasakan kekecewaan tu :(..
    but my dear, one day you'll found your true love.. tah-tah dah ada depan mata pun, cumanya tuhan belum tunjukkan lagi..insyallah.. rajin-rajin lah berdoa ye :)

    remember a thing, u still have family & friend who love u so much :X

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  10. waaa...first time dgr pasal love stemming from blogging.. huhu...

    tak leh caya sgt la org dlm blogosphere nih...hehe.. ko nih pon satu.. mesti jatuh cinta kat paras rupa kan? kan?

    pictures lie.. take note..

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  11. I hope semua dah ok. Hope she will find her happyness.

    Did you get all the pics last nite? Sorry gelap. Kawasan tu memang gelap pun.

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  12. Falling for a blogger? Too risky, my friend as nothing in blogosphere is to be trusted. You've to meet the real person face to face before you really know him or her.

    At first when you mention honesty is the best policy, I thought you are going to post the song Honesty by Billy Joel.

    I was invited to join Music Monday too but decided not to, cos I don't like to commit myself to posting about songs every Monday. Prefer to blog on topics I feel like blogging on any given day : )

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  13. Kesiannya .
    Sabar jela .
    InsyaAllah nanti akan jumpa dengan orang yang lebih baek . :)

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  14. Faisal! So happy u joined MM yeeha!

    Wow what a sad story, but I hope u've recovered from this episode and have moved on yes? May the new year bring u more love, joy and success Faisal. :):):)

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  15. im back!! sorry for not being here in the blososphere for almost 2 weeks...
    but now im happy to tell you that im back from th field again...
    and im so sorry again for missing some of your post...my apology
    may you have a great year my friend
    have a great day and God bless! !

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  16. setiap yg berlaku, pasti ada hikmah..remember that.. :)

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  17. shemah - hehe after few temptations then i gave up :P

    if this isn't fun beware rosie and bcd! lol. eh, remember you invited me too!

    at first i almost got the monday blues but end up i had to finish the report answering audit's query. damn!

    inah - i have erased the nightmare in my mind. everyday is a brand new day :) (yea! if i can be so positive like this, surely i am the best man in the world lol).

    rozella - if this isn't fun, beware! lol. sure thing, i got so many dramas to share in music monday :P

    sakura - miss the chocolate indulgence! boo hoo.

    belle - really? then why my heart has scar? ;)

    quachee - truth beneath lies. i heard the accident was true and the bad stories were true. most of the good ones belong to someone else life.

    lelucon - hehe another novel? tak pernah tulis novel pun :P

    miza - nak buat macam mana? benda nak jadi kan? :) small matter je. banyak lagi benda penting nak difikirkan :)

    jard - yep, 80% memang jatuh hati pada paras rupa. tapi i bukan yang mulakan perhubungan. so i tak bersalah hehe!

    cahaya - yes got them! hehe i owe you lah! tapi william is on you. ok tak? lol. thank you so much! :)

    foong - you don't need to do this every monday unless you feel like it. but to write something and attach music along is kinda cool you know :P

    yes, lesson in blogosphere. never fall in love with blogger!

    berrykisses
    - mudah-mudahan... amin :D

    mariuca - hehe still new tho. a novice. i wanna see what song you got later!

    blue - 2 weeks? where have you been? vacation? ;)

    teja - hikmah? macam tajuk drama plak :P

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  18. hek eleh miss choc indul je ker. kecik ati. haha :P tu la jgn jatuh ati kat org tak kenal sangat *wink* jatuhlakan hati anda kat saya. lol joking bebeh ;)

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  19. chilss..life must go on...

    Anda di tag

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  20. Finding that certain special someone is a battle and most times we lose before we win.

    Take care buddy!

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  21. Nice entry bro..
    salam kenal.. :)

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  22. sorry to hear ur story..u are not the only one faisal...she did it to many guys single/married. she will start the story and let it finish as wht she want....i'm ur silent reader actually,.,,startd follow ur blog since i knw her...she's a great drama queen,,,maybe u can forgive her...but for me...sorry..what she did to me is unforgivble......
    u dnt even knw the real her actually....hope one day she will knw tht wht she did is totally xxxxx .
    For u faisal, u deserv a better partner......

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  23. emmm... mcm kisah maya darina plak...

    nway, its good for u, kiter tak bleh cipta pengalaman, kiter kena tempuhinyer... faham tak.. emm, mcm berbelit jek ayat aku..heheheh

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  24. sakura - hehe. kadang orang yang kita rasa kita kenal, kita tak kenal sebenarnya dan yang kita tak kenal, sebenarnya memang kita tak kenal. kan?

    wahidah - rasanya demam tag dah kembali? teringat iklan tora :P

    tammy - i agree tammy. i lose in many battles. sometimes it makes me shiver to involve in another battle.

    danish - cute nye budak tu! :) thanks. salam kenal.

    me - i guess you know her better than me. i must say that i didn't know her well yet i was a fool to fall in love. maybe i was desperate. maybe i was blind because of the great pictures. i don't know.

    i hope this will be the last one for her and she will be a new woman tomorrow.

    zuhaimi - maya darina? siapa tu? hmm. betul tu. kita tak boleh cipta pengalaman :)

    hmm bila kita susah nak percayya orang kita akan dianggap berfikiran negative tapi bila kita percaya orang kita dapat benda yang negative. macam mana tu? :)

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  25. btul tu. susah nak cakap. percaya, di betray. tak percaya sebab something happen people say we are too narrow minded and all. to tell u the truth i dont trust men anymore except my father lol. too much drama in my life too =)

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  26. sakura - is that mean you love woman now? @@

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  27. owh i do love them specially my mom! ^^ haha and yeah, myself ;)

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  28. sakura - lol that is different :P

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  29. huh..be patient...

    mesti ada hikmah di sebaliknya..dalam hidup ni, ada 'karma'nya tersendiri. Yg penting, kita buat baik ngan org, pasti satu saat nnti org yg baik mendatangi kiter...

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  30. hussaini - betul kinda agree. karma "what goes around, come around" memang berguna untuk kehidupan yang lebih bermakna ;)

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  31. Faisal,
    sorry to hear your "long-distant" love story. Love is beautiful and it is really wonderful to love and to be loved. Glad that you are back on your feet again and learned a good lesson along the way. That experience will be your priceless experience in your journey to find you true love later. And sometime you don't even have to search for it, it will come to you!


    p/s: if you're coming down to Puchong anytime soon, do contact me.

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  32. drsam - oh ok doc. will inform you earlier :)

    p/s: i'm ok now, too many other things need to think about hehe.

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  33. :P ok tak ok. datang kl contact us! leh lepak2 haha. :P

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  34. sakura - hehe sure sure! eh sakura pun area shah alam kan? kire tak jauh lahh ye?

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  35. Hello...

    Nice to meet U...
    U have such a wonderful blog,bro..
    Hope to hear fr U soon...

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  36. dah pindah dah. area kl da skang ;)

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  38. hikmah..bagus gak..bleh wat tjuk for my short film..kui3..

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  39. that's a very sad sad story, and I hope everything works out for you...

    you chose a very good song to show how you feel though and it was a very nice song... :D

    don't worry about lost loves, you'll find someone who's going to be true to you and when that time comes, you're going to look back on the past loves that you have and you'll be glad that it led you to who you're really destined to be with... :D

    just remember that love has a twin, and that is pain, everybody who has loved feels pain one way or the other, it's just how it goes...

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  40. Well...It is a sad story....
    But whatever let it be a lesson...
    IN fact,I also a failure in love..BUT it teaches me a lesson...
    Learn from the mistake,my bro...

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  41. i think she's really sucks!..just come and go whatever she want..as for me,i never forgive this type of people..and i've been there once..trust me,we dun need to entertain such a horrible person like dis..

    God will turn the Table on them one fine Day..what goes around will come back around..

    Take Care and do learn from mistake ya buddy!!

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  42. tommy - nice to meet you too :) thanks for visiting.

    sakura - nanti i pegi kl tolong bawa gi william haha!

    teja - short film? untuk projek apa tu?

    ane - thanks. yes, lately when i know the truth this old song by mika really keep playing in my mind and my heart. it was a heartache to know she was attached but its worse to know i was cheated. i really feel stupid. but one good thing that can make me smile is i was not pretentious. i sent all my real pictures and i told my real stories. stories of my life.

    she was kinda devastated to know that i had a hard time to move on from thinking about my ex gf which already belonged to someone at that time. actually i wasn't think about my ex but she thought that way for some reasons.

    i still wonder what if we meet, and only realize i was cheated then?

    this is not the first time i have been cheated. there were few cases like my girl holding hand and cuddling at shopping complex with someone else, someone who telling me she got cancer to get my sympathy and i found out it was a lie and use other people pictures to catch my attention.

    i was attracted to her pictures. yes, i agree. i guess she already plan this for ages since she got lots of that girl pictures with her, in her pc and her cell phone. she even sent me picture of her when she was outside with friends at night.

    ok, enough craps. but thanks for the concern :)

    tommy - to fall in love is a scary thing. at least for me now. but in biz there is a motto "dare to fail". i guess it can be applied to the love story too?

    axim - i guess you know who is she? but lets us take this as lesson. no anger, no hatred. i still remember what dr zaitun told me. if we still keep hatred and anger in our heart, we will suffer in our whole life. so lets learn how to forgive even though i know its easy said than done.

    p/s: nanti aku nak post pasal game malam tu, tapi batuk teruk sangat sampai mc :)

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  43. Faisal, I know what you feel. I can imagine that. But my advice, just move on, this is what we called life. It's not only happiness, sometimes we have to face things like this. Just forgive her, give her chance to be a new woman like you said. And always pray for her.

    skullsplitter

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  44. Skullsplitter - Yes Eddy. I even talked to her last Friday after me and mom ate mee goreng at Jelutong. She sounded upset but I told her thing happen and we can't turn back time and correct thing. Since you are the closest one, I hope you can tell her I already forgive her and this post doesn't mean anything. Its not even a personal attack. It also will be the last post about her too. Worry not, she is lucky to have you.

    Take care pal.

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  45. william tu apa? ada apa pon? o_o?? haha sorry tak tau

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  46. sakura - hehe kedai makan le. suruh mie bawak! :)

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  47. Don't worry faisal....sabar ye..it's happened ade hikmahnya.

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  48. elle - yes. things happen and they make me stronger :)

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  49. at least you did your thorough investigation....this satisfies u..at least you made a decision..
    Probably she had her own reason too..
    LOVE IS WEIRD.. i guess ...

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  50. Faisal, you really had a special cyberlove experience. Although it didn't turn out to be a good ending, I believe you have learnt something from it. All the best and I wish to always see you in the blogosphere!

    Sheng Loong

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  51. syukur - maybe she has her own reasons yes. who knows? but lie is hard to accept. i just have no hatred or revenge against her. i hope she gets a better life now :)

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  52. sheng loong - yes. not a good experience though :) but a precious lesson in life.

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  53. hi faisal ... how r u now ...

    long time no drop here...me not around

    r u ok ... sad to hear your story.

    It hurts bad when you crushed with somebody that cheated on you ...

    hope you will be more careful and not easily trust online friend...

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  54. hehhe hehhe

    tak terkomen gua....

    jaga diri :)

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  55. razifembi - hi razif. i'm fine thanks. you?

    well, everyday we learn new thing, new lesson. so i keep this as my lesson too :)

    thanks for the concern pal :)

    13may - hehe adakah anda terkena juga? :P

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  56. banyak yg kita boleh belajar dalam kehidupan ini, slam singgah

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  57. yeah I also learned my lesson previously ...

    there were many conman nowday ...

    Experienced taught me to be more careful . . .

    im fine ... hope you get well soon ...

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  58. IMHO it's time to move on! =)

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  59. azli - betul tu. banyak yang kita belajar. diharap ia dapat membantu kita pada masa hadapan :)

    razifembi - hmm. i hope good things happen in 2009 :)

    still coughing :(

    tekkaus - yes tekkaus i agree! :)

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  60. evrythg happens wit a cause

    smile always.. :)

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  61. a painful read. this is why i dont wanna get my feelings involved in anything unless i could be sure..but there's no way, so basically there'll be one day when im gonna have to risk a lot of things for love, may Allah SWT protect my heart at that time. ergh. heartbreaks. they scare me, man.

    btw, mr faisal, did you manage to guess the end of his dark materials before you finish it? you owe me that news!

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  62. It really a dramatic story but sad to learn that it is true. I guess you have your soft spot and being a nice guy and all. It part of growing up pains actually. Glad that you are willing to talk about it and share the things you learned from it. Move on brother!

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  63. masni - i agree with you. there is pro and contra :)

    hanna - hehe nani i have left the third book for so long and i have a hard time to remember the whole story once again. this is what happen when you always jump from one book to another without finish them one by one lol. in reading i'm impatient with the titles! i think lyra dies in the end? i don't know i just guess.

    only brave one would fall in love. why? because they take great risk to be hurt.

    leon - yes most of my true stories sound like drama. or maybe most of the dramas based on true stories then? lol.

    we learn new thing everyday. i'm glad this is one of the lesson in my life :)

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  64. Wow what a sad story Faisal!
    You will find the right one when you least expect it.

    Nice song btw - I haven't heard it before but I like it.

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  65. jade - yes its a sad story but a good lesson for me :)

    yes, its an old song by mika :)

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  66. Hi..i saw ur page..nice..have read the story and hey..this thing also happened to me exactly like what you've written but the ending is different for me..:P

    well all the best to you for the future coz she's not the only one and you deserves better..

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  67. oh your guess is so not fun! *pouts* right, your comment was responded to, and im kinda worried you'd be busy and you'd miss it, so here it is, my reply:

    to mr faisal,
    im more than ready. i grew up being compared to my mum. still being compared to her even now. ppl expect me to be the second Shaariah, and if you know who my mum is within MARA, you'll be able to understand the murderous pressure i have to through everyday.

    and criticisms about my book? those arent gonna be like half the madness im trying to not become by being a teacher in a place full of people who personally know my mum. seriously. im more than ready. because im not alone.

    and yeah, revenge is sweet. let's see if it's sweet if i'm not even affected by it, LOL. oh well i am flattered that a well-known person managed to spend her time reading and responding to my offensive ramblings. *^^* nah, not famous pun. thanks!

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  68. sooshe - sooshe = sushi? hehe i like sushi!

    lucky for you to have a better ending :) i know she is not the one for me...

    hanna - hehe sorry for the bad guess nani!

    your mom is "somebody" in MARA? hmm hmm. can she approve MARA loan for me? :P

    so when do you plan to start writing? do not forget to put my name for the special thanks ok? oh ya... not to forget to give me free copy!!!

    honestly i like the way you write :)

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  69. Apologize for not commenting on this post earlier on.

    Pheewww...there's a lot of issues in here, Faisal. I guess this person whom you are dealing with is having a pathetic life…a life that she herself does not want to live and deal with. An imaginary life of others, trying to be cool to gain acceptance and loves from others, which I don't think she deserved it in the first place. There's saying that once we lie, we will keep on lying, one after another. By then, to tell the truth seems complicated, thus the blame is on life and the surroundings when in fact it was created deep down in the heart.

    I think I pretty know who that person is. Forgive her mistake, almost everyone can forgive but to forget, it will take years! And to gain trust from someone who lied to you once…will you? Yup…every one need second chance, no doubt…but why ruined the first chance to get to the second? I wonder what is she trying to prove to those whom she encountered with, and what good does it make to her? She had done a serious offence by ruining the life, hope (and future) of others…and I believe, by the way you write, that you are not the first one and also not the last one. I’m not judging her but I guess she let herself to be judged. So whatever this person said to me before was all craps too, huh. Sensed it before, but naaaa…let it go to the rubbish bin. Worthless to think of it anyway. If she reads this...let her know that as much as she once penned down in her blog before that she hate liars, I hate liars too.

    Btw, I don’t think that you are wrong in falling for her sweetness etc. You can’t help of falling in love either thru face-to-face or monitor-to-monitor. I don’t blame you for that. It is surely something that is beyond our control. BUT whatever comes from our mouth certainly within our control.

    It takes strength to be truthful when a lie would be more convenient.

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  70. Zara - Yes, same thought we share. I do agree that second chance should be given but to trust will surely take years. Until now I can’t trust her… not in the near future.

    As someone said to me, let her be herself once again as she was lost and please don’t make her upset.

    Well, fine with me and I won’t even keep in touch with her. If you read this, please let her know that I don’t want to keep in touch with her anymore. It’s pretty annoying to see the caller name is someone that we don’t want to talk; you know how it feels right?

    Someone else told me that she got her own reasons to do so and we just couldn’t understand her.

    Well, there is no reason for lying honey. If lying is the best policy, why there is no such excerpt?

    Yes, Zara back to your comment. I knew she pen down that she hates liar and honesty is the best policy. She even told me on the phone that people most people tend to make assumption rather than ask for certainty. I suppose the mirror is needed in this case?

    Yes I have forgiven her and agree with you again that to forget will take forever. I believe I was not the only one who fell for this sweet creature but there are some others out there and I know you were in the trap too.

    I hope 2009 will be brighter from 2008 and I need some cooling fresh air to breath.

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