Monday, November 17, 2008
A is attached!
S knew A few months ago. in fact to know someone in a few months time is not enough. its new. S hasn't knew everything about A yet.
they met through a dating website. then A messaged S with a simple hi. S replied. they exchanged MSN. they saw each other on webcam. nothing impress S. to S, A was just another brat who is seeking for hole, seeking for lust or to be exact seeking for a bitch. S ignored some greetings from A on MSN. A asked for a meeting few times but S refused with some excuses. one of them was because A is attached!
one night, S felt so stress. so depress. so bored. so, S texted A asked for a meeting. A simply agreed. they met and as expected A took S home. nothing much on their head at that moment just a plain vanilla...
after the first meeting, S just tried to get rid of A. A kept trying to keep in touch with S but A was ignored by S. A felt silly and stop trying. after a while, S felt uneasy. the feeling of missing someone haunted. they kept in touch again through cell phone.
they met few times.
the jealousy came when A went to kl to see the lover. but S tried the best to stay calm and not to show any reaction. deep in S's heart, S is jealous. S kept messaging A even though A told S that A would switch off the cell phone while A is there. lover was always around -- S thought.
went A came back. A wanted to meet S. but S sulked.
after 3 weeks, they met again. S missed A very much S never tell.
the happiness didn't last long. A told S that A's lover had bought a ticket to bangkok. S was sad. heartbroken. S loves A so much. but...
after a week in bangkok. A came back. as soon as A reached house, A texted S told S that A was at home. S was busy with some works and told A that S is going to meet A in the weekend. A agreed.
they met. but this time it was different. A was very lovely. romantic. loving. you named it.
it has been a while since S got a lover and to shower together is always a dream. A offered to shower to together with S. S was shy but then agreed. it was such a romantic moment. very romantic!
S was so impress with A's honesty. A never lie. but A is attached!
yes that's the fact. S is the victim now. S loves A so much but what S could do? pray that someday A will be S's? or keep on waiting to love A for the rest of S's life? S cried yesterday. S is crying now. S knows that to be in triangle love is dangerous and its like committing suicide.
A told S that if A met S 4 years ago, A would take S as A's lover. but seem now its too late.
S loves A so much and would love A forever. but for now, S guess S better stay away from A for A's relationship sake.
its either the lover or S.
or is it a goodbye?