stress

Today was such a stressful day.

Let me shout here, one by one to make me feel relief. Remember this is not a complaint even though you might claim so. It’s just a shout.

It’s hard to describe when you work 9 hours without even rest for lunch break. I know its fasting month, but that doesn’t mean we, human doesn’t need rest. Sometimes I simply think that workload has not been divided equally when you can see some colleagues can have a good conversation while laughing out loud and some even can read magazines during the working hour. It sounds ridiculous but it happen. I know it’s not good to feel envy to your colleagues but in your great stress the feeling can be existed by your unstable mind. Won’t you feel the same way?

Not enough with the workload, to make the matter worse, the toilet is damn dirty. You won’t believe that these men exist in this era where human acts like an ape. Not just they do not know how to flush after using the toilet but they even cannot remember how to clean the basin right after they use it. What will you do when you see phlegm stick everywhere at the basin? You won’t even touch wall in the toilet. How can you defecate when not just the scent spoil your mood but also you the view as the bonus?

Money always seems not enough. No matter how hard you save, if you cannot be creative to create more money, it won’t be enough. Last year I have put myself in great depress and stress when I tried my best to save a lot of money and also at the same time to find some good side income. I have been trapped into a contract farming that not really worth it. So it was a good lesson for me to learn and help others if needed in the future based on my own experience. Back to the basic, in order to build a business, you must have knowledge regarding it. Let say you want to open a restaurant; you must be a good cook before you can hire someone who can cook as your worker. If you want to open an internet café, make sure you have good knowledge about information technology and also know about software and hardware. This year it has been a bit slow to me. No progress in searching the best business for me that doesn’t need much capital to start with. I do not want to be in hurry like last year, but I must work hard to achieve what I have targeted since few years ago. Why I feel stress about money all in sudden? Part of my saving that should be invested in local share will be used for house payment and car loan settlement. I also need new furniture for my room, air conditioner and also hot shower. Not to forget, repaint my room! I need to recover slowly from the pain.

My friend told me that you will get a lot of pimples when you are stress. Maybe he was right because now I have so many pimples on my face. Some peoples call it acne. Whatever they call it, it really makes me unhappy. By looking at them in the mirror everyday, I don’t think it will vanish soon. The more stress when I look in the mirror, the more pimples will come out? Geesh.

Quizzes and assignments are getting thick. I know struggling is a must. But I have think about this properly before I decided to continue my study again after quit in 2005. I don’t care if I would take 12 years, but this is one of my life goals. So, I must complete no matter what. Flying colors is a bonus though.

I always want to be the best and the smartest if not in the entire world at least among my friends. Isn’t this a good goal too?

 

Note: I feel relief.