Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Kath I love you


The dinner was great. Candle light dinner. Cozy surrounding.

It has been so long since I ate rib eye steak last. I can’t remember. I really can’t. Maybe because it was ages ago. Maybe it was something I wanted to forget about. Something poignant. Something forlorn.

Nothing left in my plate. Neither her plate.

Jessica -- is a smart girl, tall and big appetite. That’s how I’d describe.

We talked less, more smiles than anything else. I was shy. I’m still shy until today. A shy guy who usually will be assumed as a low self esteem guy who can’t lead people but himself. I doubt.

I looked outside through the glass wall. It was raining. People walked with umbrella in their hands. It was wet outside. With aircond in the restaurant and raining outside, I really wish I could take hot shower at that moment. It was freezing.

I saw someone looking at me. I was nervous. My heart beats became fast. It became faster till I couldn’t breathe. I forgot how to inhale and exhale anymore.

I rubbed my eyes.

“Oh my God!” I screamed in my heart.

It was Katherine.

The one I love so much. I knew she loves me too.

What made me confuse? She was attached.

I left the table and ran to her. I could see the wretchedness in her eyes. Watery eyes.

She ran to the corner of the building. I grabbed her. I hugged her. I kissed her. Whispered to her how much I love her. She just cried. No word comes out from her mouth. I was panicked.

“Why you do this to me Dan? Why?” she hollered.

“I’m sorry but aren’t you attached Kath?” I replied.

She looked down.

Looked at my face and continue. “Do you love her?”

“No but…” I didn’t manage to finish my sentence.

“Then don’t mislead her!” she cried again.

“Will you choose me and leave him Kath?” I asked her and I started to cry.

“I don’t know Dan… I really don’t know. I love you but you know that our relationship is 5 years long and even though I know you for 7 months I feel like I know you for 700 years! I don’t want you to be sad. I don’t want him to be sad too!”

“That’s greedy Kath… you know that you can’t have 2 guys at the same time and keep them forever like that”

“I know Dan, but it’s hard for me”

“Maybe you should leave me Kath and focus on him”

“I can’t leave without you Dan! I love you!”

“… and you love him too!”

Silence.

“Kath… you have to make a choice” I looked into her eyes. Deep.

She looked down. Looked into my eyes. She walked away. Left me alone there in the rain.

I cried.



First Commenter : Inah

74 comments:

  1. May I know the the story book? or you write it urself?

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  2. Inah - It's from the worst author. Me.

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  3. Thumbs up!! :D

    perhaps based on your own experience or your own reading.. ;)

    keep it up :D

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  4. Inah - Glad that you like it :) It has been a while since I wrote something like this before.

    Congrats that you are the first commenter! :)

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  5. Poor dude, left crying in the rain. I like this part:

    Looked at my face and continue. “Do you love her?”

    “No but…” I didn’t manage to finish my sentence.

    “Then don’t mislead her!” she cried again.

    It's really thoughtful and girls are really like that, especially the wise ones.

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  6. Finally, a new post! :P

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  7. Half - Yes. But actually the guy is seeking for an answer. Stop hoping that Kath will choose him in the end even though he knows exactly future is unpredictable :)

    Hehe I am damn busy but still spend some times on net to scream my lung out!

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  8. gosh..i'm the first one :P

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  9. Inah - Yes and you got FC :) That was fast... Usually Half will get most of the FC LOL.

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  10. nice. I liked the very "takde kaitan" opening. the dialogues were a bit confusing though. hehe. sorry. but other than that, kudos to you! =]

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  11. Penguin - I got idea when I'm depress or stress. Weird am I? :)

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  12. I'll be the first next time LOL

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  13. Half - Haha aren't you suppose to be in front of pc 24/7?

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  14. LOL not literally 24/7! I say minus 12 from 24. You get 12. So probably around 12 hours everyday? LOL.

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  15. Honestly my "backstabbing stories" come when I'm stressed, my "controversial stories" come when I feel crazy and my "heart-string tugging stories" come when I feel sad or depressed. =]

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  16. Is this a real life story? Or you made it up? Maybe you should write a novel! : )

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  17. Anonymous9:20 PM

    i knew it... =p

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  18. Half - So, you got 12 hours left for other things? OMG! :P

    Penguin
    - Are you stress now? (based on your recent story).

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  19. Foong - Combination of a true story and fiction :) I'd be the worst author LOL.

    Anonymous - Knew what? :P

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  20. Tammy - Glad that you like it! :D

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  21. romantiknya citer ni... hehehe

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  22. Luffy - Yep kapten. Terharu tak? :P

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  23. hahhaa...nape xleh both eh?

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  24. wahh, pepagi lg dah kesedihan duk baca citer nie ;)
    awk mmg patut wat novel la ;)

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  25. erkk.... scandalous... hehe..

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  26. She made her choice, he is going to meet the other guy and dump him for you. Ha =)

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  27. she doesn't know what she wants....
    and the guy should just be "good for her" cause that's all he have to give!

    L.O.V.E is just a four letter word.

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  28. No, I'm just scary. haha.
    [gay story is controversial, kan? =P]

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  29. wow, the word was NOT scary, but CRAZY.

    how the hell did it come out as "scary" ? My subconscious is clearly warning me! =P

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  30. ceh..mati2 ingat ni cerita reality...rupa2 nya..imiginasi ah..kuat betui mamat ni berangan lah...ni leh jadi penulis novel dah ni...jiwang karat betui..x sangka ah...mati2 aku ingat gf dia si kath tu...

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  31. la ingtkan kisah benar..rupanyaaa..tk per2..good story..

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  32. errkkk i'm speecheless..

    it's brilliant though faisal..i love the plot,and how that Girl just leave you cried in the rain..

    You just remind me back how i used to be in that situation..

    :)

    well,that's life and i'm sure another day will always become a great day for us right?

    peace!!

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  33. Angel - Hehe sampai bila nak ada relationship dengan both? Takkan nak kawin dua-dua orang pula kan? :)

    Cik Ijau - Novel? Hmm tapi cerita kelam kabut lah. Nanti sape pun tak beli keke.

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  34. Jard - Haha nyanyi plak dia :P

    Tekkaus
    - Er, you go to the climax too fast haha.

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  35. Qulman - Love is a word when you put it in a letter but it's not when you put it in your heart :)

    She is simply greedy. That's what I thought.

    Half - Hehe gay story always controversial :)

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  36. Half - Haha I'm not good in choices of words. So, I used the wrong one LOL.

    Noorjan - Haha achik ni... suka buat lawak tau :P

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  37. Wahidah - Haha kisah benar? Maybe kot.

    Axim - OMG. It happen to you before?

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  38. Wow! Not bad for a person who really concentrate on his MPK kan?

    Nice. I guess this is your life story kot?

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  39. Cahaya - LOL. If you follow my blog, I write something like this when I'm stress.

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  40. Anonymous3:07 PM

    :)She have to choose!But our future is unpredictable huh?Really love this story,Faisal!(It made me cry;)

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  41. Actually I think your writing is good! For a start few Malaysians can write with as good an English as yours! So you're not the worst author, maybe not the best (yet), but definitely not the worst. xD

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  42. UknowMe - Maybe I'll write 2nd chapter but no promise :) Glad that you enjoy the story...

    P/s: Where's your blog link?

    JL - Now you make me smile :) Thanks for the compliment.

    P/s: Listening to "Better man" by Robbie William.

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  43. Anonymous8:48 PM

    dont make a love with gurls somebody..

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  44. 8-9 hours for sleeping, haha! The 12 hours I stay in front of the PC, I watch movies and read books in between!

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  45. nice story u got here...

    keep on writing~~~

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  46. First..konfius

    but..

    toward the end..oooooo

    sad story :(

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  47. Naughty boy - Well, it's hard to explain sometimes...

    Half - Too much ray is not good for your health :P

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  48. butterfly - glad that you like it :)

    shumierain - confusing eh? which part? :)

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  49. hmmm is this story about your experience?

    why not that guy make the choice for kath and steal her away from the other guy?

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  50. Anonymous9:30 AM

    true story kah? :P

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  51. ted - why sad face? :)

    lisalicious - er, no comment about whether it's true story or not.

    well, he can steal away the girl but is that what she really wants? if her heart is still with another guy, there is no use Dan steals Kath away anyway.

    it takes 2 peoples to tango :)

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  52. adila - what make you think so? :P

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  53. oh i like the picture. and i like the story. but please continue, dont leave it hanging. hue hue. is kath pretty? =)

    someone named mat kilau commented on my post..PPSMI, he said something about how hard it was to put BM in place and how easy it is to push it away..does PPSMI do that? i mean, remove it from its place? i dont get it. can you go see?

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  54. Potter - Haha Nani, suppose there is another post for the 2nd chapter but I won't put it that way. Rather puzzle all readers in here :P

    I've replied his comment and I hope it's not sarcastic :)

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  55. I know but I'm not so disciplined, I guess! LOL.

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  56. Anonymous6:32 PM

    not hard.. just ask b4 u fall in luv.. its like u luv some1 wife.. if u can steal her heart, its mean u just broke another heart.. just think if u @ the guy side. wat u feel.. its same feeling with a gurl who his husband married another gurl..

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  57. Anonymous7:55 PM

    hehehe.... good story..... u have another color of ur life man.... use it wisely...

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  58. Hey I tagged you on my blog! :P

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  59. Typical guys attitude when it comes to love matters.. =) good story line, though..

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  60. wah nice story. both side to be blame to me. xD love each other while in a relationship with someone else. o_O love the story xD nice going!

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  61. thanks. it wasnt as sarcastic as my post tho. i wont mind even if it is. oh yea, kak aliya responded to your comment already! you can go see, i've already released it up my ppsmi post. =)

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  62. *Gasp*

    Is this a real story??? I mean, is this is all about u? Hahaha

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  63. half - do you need a spank in order to discipline yourself? :P

    naughty - yes it's true. you got points in your comment. what about if it is his first love and yet he doesn't know whether it's called friendship or lover. when the relationship is very dull and it's a long distance relationship?

    which with Dan they can live together and they even meet everyday.

    life can be very complicated which sometimes you get fed up of life.

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  64. adlie - another color?? explain?

    half - lol. emotional unstable. can i do the tag later? :P

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  65. myzxara - typical guy's attitude? hmm mind to elaborate for that part?

    guys might look strong physically but after all they are also human which means they have heart. heart can be broken at anytime by anyone... and it's hard to mend :(

    syaz - well, sometimes love is blind. but what you gonna do when you never fall in love and then all in sudden you met someone who care for you and you thought it was love but then when you meet someone else then you know what true love really is. will you carry on with the old love which can be considered as friendship or cherish the love life you meet recently... the one you know will love you forever and grow old with you?

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  66. potter - nani i have countered the comment but with a very short one. my mind is unstable now. it's hard for me to give good points to nail her. after all that kind of topic is going to be dragged into a debate for sure.

    ann - instead of liking the story... what do you think? :)

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  67. i've done that before... its end with a bad memories...

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  68. :)
    for the plot, agak bgus..nk jadi writer ke?hee..smbil2 ada msa lpang tu..kdg2 our own story pun leh jadi story yg sgt2 mnrik tau..

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  69. teja - ya... nanti nak buat cerita lain la pula... malas sambung

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  70. Out of curiousity, I check on the old post... haha... Nice plot there and rip my heart to read it.. :p

    I like the last part, "you have to make a choice"... Hehe... let's keep the story of the line for myself, at least for now... ehehe..

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  72. witch - hehe you must read the sequence :P just that there's no ending :)

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